It's here. 2012. A year shrouded in mystery and filled with countless theories ranging from the world coming to a catastrophic end to a new age of consciousness where humanity takes a quantum spiritual evolutionary leap. As for me, my focus is on a smaller scale. This year is about baby steps, and if the universe does happen to continue into 2013, I hope that by this time next year those minute steps have brought me more in alignment with that feeling of being in the flow of life again.
The last couple of months I have spent a lot of time resurfacing from a long forgotten place I had been before in my darkest of times, where I no longer recognize myself and the laughter becomes frozen in a harsh winter. I've never been one to want to live in the frigid regions of the world. And I'm grateful to say that spring has begun to claim its rightful place again in my world. It's January in Southern California the trees are already blossoming. We have our own ideas about what winter is on the sunny coast, and it's over.
Life is still chock full of adventures, both the challenging and the victorious, but now I'm seeing them from a place of feeling blessed deep within. What a wonderful gift that is. A big part of this still evolving transformation can be attributed to listening to Rev. Michael's Spiritual Liberation on CD over and over. I even play it while I sleep sometimes. I found what resonates with my soul, what feeds the joy within me, and I saturated myself in it in multiple forms. I listened to spiritual music and books on CD, watched spiritual DVDs, live streamed the Agape Spiritual Center's services, and just kept taking care of what was in the moment. Now, after months of little choices all added up, I can feel that pilot light within me again, having ignited something greater, creating a glow that I feel when I pay attention. Bit by bit I will get to the place where I am fully aglow again. No rush. I'm good where I am. I'm grateful for the journey as it unfolds. I hear myself laughing again, and after the deafening silence I felt within me recently, my own laughter surprises me, and brings me even greater joy. I'm on my way "home."
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