Life has been interesting lately. I suppose it's always colorful, but recently I feel as though part of me has fallen asleep and wants to wake up. Since I pretty much chose this forced hibernation of sorts, I'm reluctant to have the groundhog see his shadow so soon.
The two polar opposites that create me haven't figured out a way to play well together. Five years ago, the spiritual part of me woke with a start and took me on a whirlwind of adventures. It was an amazing journey; beautiful, powerful, and terrifying all at once. Over this past year that part of me has taken a smaller and smaller corner of my life, finally curling up quietly, resting and waiting for the pendulum to swing closer to middle ground again. Back in the world of academia where only the empirical survives, I sit in awe of the knowledge the professors impart, and yet I am so disconnected that little of it seems to stick in my mind. It feels as though I study in circles, am too easily distracted, and that corner of my life keeps nudging me, telling me that despite the falling leaves outside, within there are buds of new life waiting to burst forth.
So these words typed late at night are my way of saying yes... it is okay to awaken. I am unsure what the journey will look like, but my hope is that these two parts of me, the literal, worldly part and the spiritual, universal part, weave together to create strong threads for the tapestry of my future. This blog will be a way for me to share all of the wisdom that has been handed to me over the years both internally and externally. It is a gift meant to be shared, and the gong of the eternal now alarm has rung through me, signaling it is time to begin.
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